May 1
I'd like to say that I am adjusting to a new normal. But, I'm not there yet.
I'll be honest, when all of this started, I prayed that I could be one of those people who had such grace and dignity that I would hold my head up high, be the model of strength and character and press through with a smile. So far, not so much. The truth about all of this is that it sucks. It just plain sucks. Chemo meds suck. Steroids suck. Checking my blood sugar when I never had to before sucks. Leg cramps. Nose bleeds. Throwing up. Nausea. Missing play-off hockey games. No energy. It all sucks.
But, as is often the case in God's economy, there is equal beauty in the ashes. There are countless reminders surrounding me even now - notes from sweet people - gifts - and tokens that say "we believe" in you, for you, because of you. And my shoulders straighten a little, my head rises a little more with each one.
There's hope for me yet.
Jeremiah 29:11 For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the Lord, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.
God bless you- love you. Still continuing to pray without ceasing - Pam
ReplyDeleteStill praying, God and you have this.
ReplyDeleteGet 'em Tiger. You are one wonderful warrior whom God will lead!!!
ReplyDeleteYou are so brave. And it’s ok to be scared and ticked off too. Many continued thoughts and prayers to you my dear friend. Love you more than you can know ❤️
ReplyDeleteBeen praying daily for you. I know it's not an easy fight, but you've got lots of prayer warriors praying over you. We also continue to pray for your family and friends who are there supporting you. Love you.
ReplyDeleteYou may think you aren’t “one of those people who had so much grace and dignity” but you are ohhhhh, so wrong my friend! You ARE the model of strength and character and an inspiration to all who know you! Love you!
ReplyDeleteThis may not be the place for me to say this but because of you and the many notes of encouragement and wisdom and your strong faith, have helped bring me where I am today, back to a complete trust in the Lord. I know I can not do things on my own anymore and that the reason I have made it this far, when all I wanted to do was give up, is because of GOD!!!! He has been carrying me through so many things and when I sit and think of all my blessings which I do not deserve, I see Now much HE LOVES ME and only HE knows what is best for me!!! You have helped me see those blessings and I count you as one the greatest blessings of all. You may feel like you are this fight alone, but be assured that I am fighting with you. YOU ARE NOT ALONE!!!! And GOD has you in his hands!!!! These words may not make a lot of sense but I hope they give you courage on your bad days!!!! You have changed me and I am forever grateful!!!! Love you my dear sweet friend. I hope to one day we meet face to face and I can give you a great big hug but for now cyber hugs are all I can offer as well as prayers. Love you sweet Cindy!!!!! I can never repay you what you have back to me.....HOPE!!!!!
ReplyDeleteI love you and I'm so happy to read what's on your heart. Keep it up when you can!!! Praying for strength and courage and complete healing.
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